DAY 11 - ARTICLE 11
- The last conversation between Siddhattha and Channa -
When other people returned to Kapilavatthu, Channa should have also returned. But he insisted Gotama to see off him with Kanthaka (horse) at least to the banks of the river Anoma. Gotama could not refuse.
At last they reached the banks of Anoma.
Siddhattha Gotama said to Channa, "Good friend, your devotion to me has been proved by you thus following me. I am wholly won in heart by you, you have such a pure love for me."
Siddhattha continued, "I am pleased with your noble feelings towards me, even though I am powerless of conferring any reward. Each and every relation is a bit selfish. People stay connected to each other with hope of any kind of reward. You are the only exception. Now take this horse and return."
Siddhattha added, "My father would be highly shaken with grief. Tell him, I have left him with no thirst for heaven, with no lack of love, nor feeling of anger. Since separation is certain, one should not keep mourning. At a man's death there are many heirs to his wealth, but heirs to his merit are hard to find on the Earth, or exist not at all."
My father might say, "He has gone at a wrong time. But there is no wrong time for duty."
Tell to my mother, "I am utterly unworthy to deserve her affection. She is a noble person, too noble for words."
Having heard these words, Channa, overwhelmed with grief, made reply with folded hands, his voice choked by emotion : "Seeing that you are causing affliction to your loved ones, my mind, sinks down like an elephant in a river of mud. Such kind of determination, with full of love for his kindred can melt even a man with heart made of iron. How can such a man not shed tears?"
Channa continued, "A Prince who has born to sleep on the soft beds of palace, how will his delicate body bear the pain of sleeping on ground of the ascetic forest, covered with the shoots of rough Kusa grass?"
"Surely you will never forget your father and mother. You won't ever abandon your wife and son. Even if your mind be resolved to abandon your kindred and your kingdom, you will not, O Master, abandon me, your feet are my only refuge. I cannot go to Kapilavatthu with my soul thus burning, leaving you behind in the forest. What will I say to the king? What a shameful moment it would be for me?!"
Having heard these words of Channa, overcome with sorrow, Siddhattha Gotama with the utmost gentleness answered : "Abandon this distress. Change is inevitable in corporeal beings, who are subject to different births. Even if I would have not abandoned my kindred by being parivrajaka, one day, death would have still seperated us from one another.
My mother, Mahamaya, who gave me birth with great thirst and pain, where am I now regard to her, and where is she with regard to me?"
Siddhattha added, "As birds go to their roosting-tree and then depart, so the meeting of beings inevitably ends in separation. As clouds, having come together, departs asunder again, such I consider the meeting and parting of living things.
Therefore, since it is so, grieve not, my good friend, but go; and if your love lingers, then go and afterwards return."
It is said that hearing the conversation between Gotama and Channa, even Kanthak shed tears, was full of grief. Kanthaka licked his feet with his tongue and dropped hot tears.
Gotama stoked Kanthaka and addressing like a friend, "Shed not tears, Kanthaka, bear with it, your labours will soon have its fruit."
Having known that the time of separation had come, Channa paid honour to the sylvan dress of Gotama. Then Gotama, having bidden good-bye to Kanthaka and Channa, went on his way.
Channa, hopeless and repeatedly lamenting, started on his return journey. On the way, sometimes he pondered, sometimes he lamented, sometimes he stumbled, sometimes he fell, he performed all kinds of actions on the road, knowing not what he was doing. His heart was so heavy that the road which he used to travel in one night with Kantahak, that same road he now took eight days to travel, pondering over his lord's absence. On their way, neither Channa and nor the horse, though pressed with hunger, he welcomed not, nor tasted, any grass or water on the road, as before.
- Channa and Kanthaka entered the city of Kapilavatthu -
Slowly the two at long reached Kapilavatthu, which seemed empty when deserted by Gotama. They reached the city in body but not in soul. The two with dull eyes, shed tears. When the men saw that they had returned without the pride of the Sakya race, Prince Gotama, they shed tears. Women, opened their windows, when saw an empty back of Kanthaka, weeped loudly. People kept asking, "Where is the king's son?" Channa had no answers.
The family in mourning.
To be continued in Next Article....
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Namo Buddhay.